Living Water in Me

I have been spending much time in prayer, thought, and planning for the future that lies ahead of me. A future that is sure to draw me nearer to God, closer to other people who need Him, and purify me in His suffering. I find that my fears are turning to desire, inspiration, and an overwhelming sense of 'let's go!' In the midst of the night, I found myself completely unable to sleep. Not because of anxiety, worries, or even a caffiene fix. My mind whirled with thoughts about a school that will extend the arms of Christ to the needy community. A school that will educate and empower young minds in service to God. A school, that suddenly bore a name - Living Water Christian School. I wondered where the name came from and the answer was right there with me as I was reading scriptures. The woman at the well. Jesus offers her "living water"....water that will quench all thirst, and retire the need for fetching from the well. Living Water. I realized then how God was touching the ashes of my past to ignite the fire of my future.

You see, I feel like I have had a lot in common with the woman at the well. She was seeking security, love, and fulfillment from someone or something other than God. Yet, just like that woman, my heart was open to truth. The soil of my heart has been cultivated (in my case bulldozed) for the moment my seeing eyes are laid upon a Savior. Remembering this as I lay there in the dark I knew that God has been preparing me all along for this work, for this school, for this sacrifice. Then a shadow begins to appear, the shadow of doubt and fear.

I was once controlled by fear. My decisions were based upon it, all of them. I didn't know that I was afraid. I believed that fear was to be listened to without question. Fear no longer has this power over me because now I have NOTHING to FEAR. Christ is the victor and I am on His team! So now when fear casts a shadow over my thoughts and dreams I remember that fear is an illusion, like a hologram. It is a very REAL LOOKING but nonexsistant barrier that can only be destroyed through faith and courage. Fear only has power when it is given it by those who who lack the courage to face the beast and then watch it 'vanish' like a hologram. (The hologram analogy came from a movie I saw today. It gave me a visual of fear and I am a visual learner).

Living Water Christian School, the beginning of my future. The work that God intended just for me at 'just the right time'. May living water pour abundantly through this work into the hearts, minds, bodies, and souls of each person that God draws to it. May I be given the gift of suffering, surrounded by His comfort, and held by His great loving arms. I ask you to pray for this ministry, pray for Gods providence, for guidance and fearlessness, for the children, teachers, and others who will come and be part of it. Pray that above all God may be glorified. Amen.